It has been the hardest month I may ever have to face.
I remember William's first month...learning how to be a momma, sleepless nights, and lots of "firsts" -first bath, first bottle, first smile...I remember thinking it was the hardest but sweetest month of my life.
This first month is just...different. We had several firsts- but it wasn't firsts we wanted to have. We never wanted to have to pick out her headstone, never wanted to spend days in the NICU nor did we want to do the unthinkable and bury our baby.
The feeling that I had with William's first month remains...the hardest but yet the sweetest.
I know that may seem hard to grasp- I think many will never know and I pray that those who are walking in my shoes will feel the same.
Time seems to go so fast the older I get. I am thankful for it means that eternity is within the near future. My sweet one is seeing Glory today and my hope is in that one day I will join her.
I have missed so many of the sweet firsts with Henley and my heart aches often thinking about my little girl, but on this day...I REJOICE!
The little firsts that I miss will fade away...her eternity with Him won't!
So today I simply thank God for one of the sweetest blessings...
In ALL things, whether it's picking out a headstone or cleaning up a sick child, I will REJOICE!
Such a beautiful post!! I love your sweet family even though I've never met you guys.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your special sweet soul with us! Yes, we should be striving always toward not temporary and fleeting happiness, but eternal JOY in Him, no matter our circumstance. God bless y'all always!
ReplyDeleteWe continue to lift you up in prayer! Your family is beautiful! Thak you for sharing about Henley. You are a true testement to how we are supposed to cling to Jesus! Thank you for your testimony!
ReplyDeleteYour story touched me in a way very few do. I pray for your family daily and love that your faith continues as strong as it despite the difficulties. My thoughts are with your family.
ReplyDeleteHenley is beautiful and I'll gladly rejoice with you :)
Your story has captured my heart. What a testimony you have. I have been genuinely moved by your posts. May God continue to bless and keep you as He blankets you with mercy and grace in a way that only HE can! The picture in this post is quite possibly one of the most precious moments ever captured on film! Breathtakingly beautiful!!
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry for your loss. Somehow I pressed in someone's name on FB and saw your blog. I truly believe God puts people in our ways to help others. I lost my son 5 years ago a day before birth. Full term and he was perfect no
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Is 1am here in the states. I played that song, "It is Well with my Soul
At Chase's funeral". Please feel free to email me if you need an ear to listen. I can honestly say that I have taken the loss
Of Chade and tried to live the best possible life. It is hard I always say the bleeding stops but the scars always remain. I just wanted
To say I am so sorry for your loss. Heidi
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